if you only knew how i still think and feel for you out of all this years, --actually, how could you? when you are so far away now so far from me far from everything that ever was. i am ready to admit that it was all my fault i let you slip away, but if i didn’t would you still be with me? i doubt it. what do you think?. am sure you don’t want to because what would be the point of it all? even if you did its not like you would care how im doing but we will see what life ahead brings. though i do not want to wait and see because am afraid to see what this future have in stored for me =/ but freak why cant i just get you out of my mind?!. seems like its impossible to, what should i do? where there isnt a place i could go to without thinking or seeing a part of you, maybe you're just unbelievably impossible to get over but why? or how? i've sunk to a new low which and where i use other people to get you out of my mind (my diversion and yes pathetic) to keep me occupied but there is not a time where i've ever referred nor thought and shared of what was, how can I get you out? should i punch a hole on my right temple and maybe you will spill out with the blood out of my head?(now that’s just stupid) or should i stab a heart that only care for you.(well that’s brutal) why am i so crazy about you? maybe because you are gone and i just want what was once mine to return. or have I just gone crazy because this Love i used to call once does not exist anymore since you left.
Too many drunken questions, never A proper answer. Its over, that is. I cannot seem to accept something that isn't true. Whether you've move on and I don’t or I don’t and I don’t, You are still that inspiration that drove me mad. Madness ha!. the animosity that that experience brought me just dispatched my heart and soul to a never ending torment of a life/death.
I've only and always cared for you Speedo, though all this expressing will do nothing to bring you any closer to where we are now. It is my only way of accentuating my already diverted heart to never find Love with anyone other than you.
You are my Inspiration, My Love Song, My Never Ending Passion..
I Love You.
